TRUST, BROKEN

Trust, broken.
Thoughts, woken.
Hurt, spoken.
Touch, token.

Unpreparable.
It comes from the one you don’t expect.
Unrepairable.
You’ll never again be able to not suspect.

Healing is an intellectual token
Once the trust has been broken.
Only the spirit can find a new rhyme
In its own way, in its own time.

Che Chidi Chukwumerije
Poems from the inner river

COMPLICATED

They will hurt you
It’s what they do
When they feel attracted to you.

Do they love you? It’s hard to say.
Do they hate you? It’s hard to say.
What they feel is hard to explain
But it will cause you pain.

Che Chidi Chukwumerije
Poems from the inner river

GOLD’S LOW STANDARDS

Who decided that gold is the standard?
Why do we think it is so valuable?
A shiny metal. Can we eat it? Yet we bombard
Humankind with unkind mined metal unable
To nourish spirit or body or soul or even mind -
But greed needs a rampart for greed is blind
And money is the mockery of the honest grind.

Silver and gold have brought sorrow untold
To the timid and the bold, the young and the old,
Warm-blooded and cold-hearted who all departed
Without a dust of gold from the path they started
Upon, seeking value in materialism’s charms
And losing their value in materialism’s arms’
Creeping stranglehold that grins and harms.

Che Chidi Chukwumerije
Poems from the inner river

THE LONG FALL

The thing which if kissed
will bring you the wildest happiness
Is the thing which if missed
will bring you the deepest sadness

The higher you did fly
The longer you will fall down
Until you hit the ground
And instantaneously die.

It is not the final impact that hurts
but the long excruciatingly long fall
unable to reverse or arrest or accelerate
the moment that will end it all.

A time of remembering
A time of regretting
A time of wishful extrapolating
And never forgetting.

Che Chidi Chukwumerije
Poems from the inner river

WHAT YOU FELT YOU WOULD FEEL

When the worst happens,
The thing you fear the most,
A strange thing happens:
Your fear becomes a ghost.
It was never real,
It was imagination,
It was expectation -
What you felt you would feel.

But aren’t we spirit? Pain is the hand
That forces us to grow and to understand
There’s nothing ‘twixt the sea and the sand
That can’t be healed by spirit’s magic wand.

Che Chidi Chukwumerije
Poems from the inner river

I’M FINE

How are you today?

I’m still hurting from yesterday
I don’t know what to say
I’m very sad even when I play
Lord, heal my broken heart, I pray
I’m lost, I can’t find the way… -

I’m fine, thank you
And you?

Thank you
I’m fine too.

Che Chidi Chukwumerije
Poems from the inner river

REJECTION

When people reject you 
They don’t realise they’ve done you a favour;
You can move on from the rejected you
And metamorphose into a higher nature. 
Had they accepted you 
You would have remained the old creature
In that lower state unaware that you
Could have activated this new extra feature
That has deepened, strengthened, elevated you.

Rejection is ejection into motion,
An injection of self-reflection 
Towards redemption and transformation. 
An injunction to move, and motivation 
To self-improve in a new direction
With grit, with purpose, and with intention.
On the path towards self-realisation
and self-actualisation, every new rejection
Is another tiny course-correction. 

Che Chidi Chukwumerije 
Poems from the inner river 

Che Chidi Chukwumerije
Poems from the inner river

NEITHER HERE NOR THERE

Those that live in foreign lands
But never really left their home
Whose hearts never cup the sands
Upon which their reluctant feet roam
And the prints made where each boot stands
Will be washed away by the evening foam
Of a suspicious tide that never understands
The ripened fruits of an alien-like biome - -
Ye shall go back home with empty hands
To a strange land that is no longer home.

Che Chidi Chukwumerije
Poems from the inner river

BEYOND PAIN

Pain they say is your friend
But it is also your enemy.
Be careful when it starts to bend,
It can break you completely.

Take small breaks from your pain
Every once in a little while.
Laugh at yourself or with a friend -
If you can’t laugh, smile.

Tell pain enough is enough
When you’ve learned your lesson.
After washing, turn the shower off
And you can now start dressing

Up, stepping out and showing up,
Changing your narrative.
Not pain but joy is the overflowing cup
That we drink to eternally live.

Che Chidi Chukwumerije
Poems from the inner river

I HURT BADLY

There are pains I could bear
When I was younger
Which I cannot bear
Any longer

When I was younger, I was tougher
My heart could recover
Now I’m older, I’m harder
No longer a bender, now a breaker

No longer a healer, now a hurter
So I don’t engage
Unnecessarily, I don’t bother
I just turn a new page.

Che Chidi Chukwumerije
Poems from the inner river