SENSING UPWARDS TOWARDS THE GRAIL

Someone else had to happen before you could happen. Someone else had to come into existence before you could come into existence. Another plane had to be formed before your plane could subsequently arise. A higher species had to be created before you could afterwards develop. You are the result of what someone else left over and pushed out.

You are the lowest of the low, the last of the least, but you don’t know it because you cannot imagine what could be above you or what could have come before you…; Because if you could imagine it and conceptualise it and understand it and know it, you would have been it and not you. Hence, humility is essential for eternal life.

Sensing upwards towards the Holy Grail, you realise that there is always something more – and it came before you. And something came before it. And something came before it. On and on… I realised today that we can never see the Holy Grail. We can only hear of it, be told about it, and sense our way upwards towards the after-effects of what emanates from it.

Che Chidi Chukwumerije
Undulating Plains

CLARITY

A lot of our time is taken up by the attempt to make ourselves comprehensible to others and to understand them in return. If you listen to any conversation between any two people, you will notice just how much TIME is used up by the effort to transfer information from one to the other. They try multiple words and many different phrases. They repeat the same thing over and over again, with the same and different words.

They ask many questions, sometimes the same question several times, and explain themselves multiple times. All in the attempt to make themselves understood to one another, to transfer the exact and correct piece of information that each carries within to and into the other person’s inside and into the other person’s comprehension capacity. Most of our interactions are a long arduous twisting marathonic endeavour at communication, often ending in only partial success or really no real success at all.

But imagine if there was a way to instantly and accurately transfer exact information between ourselves and into one another. Exact, and above all comprehensible, information. Directly – from mind to mind, from heart to heart, from intuition to intuition. How much time would be saved? And how much misunderstanding would be avoided. So much. This is probably why the best communicators do so with pictures or use words that awaken images within the recipient’s mind. Because a picture is worth a thousand words, they say. But a picture can also be misinterpreted, if the context is not properly explained. It all depends. And that’s the whole point.

And yet… is the effort to communicate not an intrinsic part of the very purpose of existence? Is is not the one side of the coin of consciousness with which we pay and earn our development? And the other side of the coin is the effort to bring clarity within one’s own inner life. Because the more you try to make something comprehensible to another, the clearer it becomes to you too. And the clearer it becomes to you, the easier it is to communicate it to someone else, sometimes with just one mental picture awakened within them that brings intuitive comprehension and intellectual clarity.

Che Chidi Chukwumerije
Undulating Plains

DIFFERENT KINDS

There are different kinds of friends
They connect in different ways
There are different kinds of bends
They connect with different ways
There are different kinds of trends
They connect into different ways
There are different kinds of ends
They disconnect and you go different ways
And then they connect you to different ways.

Che Chidi Chukwumerije
Poems from the inner river

ME

I will try
to be me
And trying
to be me
Is a part
of being me.

And in trying
to be me
I have already
become me.

Che Chidi Chukwumerije
Poems from the inner river

HARD TO EXPLAIN

There are too many things
In my heart
For which I don’t have words -

Some are chains, some are wings,
Some please, some hurt,
Some are shields, some are swords.

All are a part of the challenge in me,
Hurting me, holding me, healing me.

Che Chidi Chukwumerije
Poems from the inner river

HOMEWORK

We have to become beautiful
Inside and outside
And stop roaming the earth full
Of shame and pride
Looking for a Paradise
That is ours and ours alone to make -
Until we arise
At home, our success abroad is fake.

Che Chidi Chukwumerije
Poems from the inner river

LET THEM

People that want to come,
Let them come.
People who want to go,
Let them go.
Chase none, but tell some
That they should come;
However if they still want to go,
Don’t beg them, let them go
Back to where they’re coming from.

Che Chidi Chukwumerije
Poems from the inner river

I WANT TO GROW

I want to grow
I want to know
What’s outside the window
Of my sorrow

I want to go
Where pain cannot follow
Too deep to flow
Too far for tomorrow

The incredible today Show
Thousandfold ecstasy and woe
Changes me into what I need to know
Ahead of tomorrow.

Many more miles to go
The first step is to sow
Hope, sow Joy, sow kindness despite sorrow
Growth is a stream, gently row.

Che Chidi Chukwumerije
Poems from the inner river

THE GOD OF THE WILLING

We cannot use God to hide away from the world. Rather we should use God to engage with, decipher and overcome the world. Above all, the world within us. God is not for cowards or weaklings. God is for the brave, the bold, the adventurous, the determined, the open, those who are ready to use the earthlife for that for which it was granted to them: to experience, and to grow through this experiencing.

The form or the content of the experiencing is different for each person. For some it is a quiet thing they need to experience, for others it is a loud thing; for some it is a popular thing they must dare, for others it is an unpopular or even a seemingly inconsequential thing; for some it is a controversial thing, for others it is a safe and boring and therefore annoying and unbearable thing; for some it is personal love, for others it is objective love.

Everybody has those things that will call their heart deeply – and running to God will still not free you from them. There is no escape because it is inside you. God is not there to hide you from yourself or from your challenges. God is there to help you to deal with them. That is why HE granted you this earth life, because HE knows you will need every second of whatever length of time you earned for yourself in this current incarnation.

So, get to work! Go for it. Set off with the business of living by experiencing. God will help you if you are brave and honest.

Che Chidi Chukwumerije
Undulating Plains

TYPES

Sometimes you are just not someone’s type. They might be attracted to you for a while, curious about you, interested in you, be entertained by you. But in the end they will betray you or leave you, because deep within their heart you are actually not their type or what they’re looking for.

And there are two types of them. Those that will tell you honestly up front. And those who won’t.

Che Chidi Chukwumerije
Undulating Plains