REBIRTH OF HAPPINESS

I found Happiness in my heart. It came out of the Blues, I don’t know where from, just at that moment and in that phase when I was experiencing the deepest betrayal and the most excruciating pain. I embraced the pain and decided to let it carry out its mission within me. I only made one promise to myself, I would not let it kill me.

One morning, when I was at my lowest, I called out to Happiness and begged it to come to me, swore to myself that I would find it. I knew it heard me, I felt it in the message it sent to me, like a vibration that touched my heart and awakened Hope. But the pain stayed, it did not go away immediately. Instead, it intensified and seemed to make one last grand grab at my Soul and my inner life, to kill me inwardly at last and for good.

I struggled, stumbled, but kept on walking, full of pain. And then, just as suddenly as this sentence follows on the last one, out of the Blues, in the middle of work and mundane daily chores, just when I was not looking or paying attention… Happiness suddenly showed up in my heart, like a Hero, like Sunrise, like a gift from God, like a warrior of Light.

Happiness is a strange thing, it lifts you high on wings of lightness, fills your heart with buoyancy, and makes you… Happy.

Che Chidi Chukwumerije
Undulating Plains

DIE HARD

All the things I thought would kill me,
Didn’t kill me.
But they sure did hurt…
They hurt like hell for a long time -
But they didn’t kill me.
They made me wiser, stronger and sadder;
But in the end I’m still me.

Che Chidi Chukwumerije
Poems from the inner river

THROUGH HONESTY

Don’t be ashamed
Pour it all out
The heart is tamed
and freed from doubt
by the bravery of honesty.

Let those that hurt you
continue to mock you
It still cannot stop you
from healing through honesty
and growing through adversity.

Che Chidi Chukwumerije
Poems from the inner river

MAY YOU

May you grow
Like the flowers you love so much

May you sow
Seeds of fruits that nourish as such

May you glow
Under the purity of a true lover’s touch

May you know
Honesty to which you can safely clutch.

Che Chidi Chukwumerije
Poems from the inner river

WITHOUT A TRACE

There was once a person
I once knew her for a short while
I don’t know what happened to her
Or who she became or what lifestyle
I have no idea where she is now
I never discovered where she went to
Or who she mixed herself up with, if any
If she still exists, what she’s going through
But she made my heart childlike
Before she suddenly disappeared
Without a trace -

I pray to God, Who knows it all,
To always be with her wherever she is
And give her protection, progress and peace
And guide her to a beautiful place
Full of flowers, true love, honesty and bliss.

Che Chidi Chukwumerije
Poems from the inner river

THE LOUD CROWD

The loud crowd
Is soft to my heart
Their warmth is gold
When they smile they hold
My heart with love untold
In their family fold.
Good people don’t need
To be perfect to lead -
Their goodness leads you home.

Che Chidi Chukwumerije
Poems from the inner river

BRIGHTNESS UP AHEAD

There’s brightness up ahead
Curiousity and hope instead
Of shuddering tears we shed
Instead of feet that walking bled
And never a word said.
But now there’s brightness up
Ahead and an overflowing cup
And a loaf of laughter for my sup.
If you look deeply you’ll see it on my face
That my heart was caught by His grace. 

Che Chidi Chukwumerije
Poems from the inner river

SEASON OF TRUTH

Only truth can heal wounds. That is why the Spirit of Truth is also the Comforter. Jesus Christ promised his disciples: “You shall know the Truth, and the Truth shall set you free.” Because only the Truth can close all gaps – and closing of gaps is the symbolic expression for the healing of wounds. Yes, only the Truth can set you free – free of pressure, free of uncertainty and insecurity, free of guilt, free of doubt and free of pain. And, finally, only the Truth can show you the way forward, through your journey, the way out of the Darkness and up to the Light.

For this purpose I recommend the book “In the Light of Truth” (the Grail Message) by Abd-ru-shin. It unveils Truth that brings clarity to the human SPIRIT and offers a new direction to the human intellect on how to grasp reality in a way that makes everything make sense. Fate and free will. Destiny and decision-making. Thoughts and words. Spirit, soul and body. Intuition and intellect. Woman and man. Humans and animals. Fairy tales and reality. Life and afterlife. Religion and science. Character and personality. Vanity and humility. Goodness, truthfulness and kindness. Self-struggle and self-conquest. Family and individuality. Homogeneity, reciprocity and responsibility. God and everything else. The Grail Message is a great help in understanding the essence of life, for it mediates clarity in the Light of Truth.

Truth. And also in our interactions as human beings, truthfulness is the basis of true connections, trust, intimacy, safety and real bonds. Truthfulness primarily about who we are, what our natures really are and what we really want. Truthfulness is the difference between a humanity that meets and knows itself and harmoniously bonds with itself, or a humanity that is perpetually at odds with itself, disunited and conflicted. Truthfulness is the most valuable virtue that a human being has to offer in the relationship with other human beings. As 2026 dawns, may you be honest with yourself about who you really are, and may you be honest to those who cherish you. It is the basis of everything good.

Che Chidi Chukwumerije
Undulating Plains

HEARTS NEED TIME

The heart needs a long time
To understand that someone is gone.
Decades after the death bells chime,
The heart still waits for the loved one
To come back home.

The heart needs a long time
Because hearts are built for eternity.
Loving is more violent than crime,
You’ll be sentenced to immortality
As you wander and roam
Trying to come back home.

Che Chidi Chukwumerije
Poems from the inner river

THAT KIND OF LOVE

How can someone
Love someone so much?
Is it possible? Once upon
A time there was such.

And betrayal couldn’t make the love go away,
It only opened a wound that would forever stay
And questions yearning to find answers some day.

Che Chidi Chukwumerije
Poems from the inner river