Before you hear the train You feel the wind; Before you feel the pain Your inner voice starts to softly sing. Che Chidi Chukwumerije Poems from the inner river
Of Inner States
THE GOD OF THE WILLING
We cannot use God to hide away from the world. Rather we should use God to engage with, decipher and overcome the world. Above all, the world within us. God is not for cowards or weaklings. God is for the brave, the bold, the adventurous, the determined, the open, those who are ready to use the earthlife for that for which it was granted to them: to experience, and to grow through this experiencing.
The form or the content of the experiencing is different for each person. For some it is a quiet thing they need to experience, for others it is a loud thing; for some it is a popular thing they must dare, for others it is an unpopular or even a seemingly inconsequential thing; for some it is a controversial thing, for others it is a safe and boring and therefore annoying and unbearable thing; for some it is personal love, for others it is objective love.
Everybody has those things that will call their heart deeply – and running to God will still not free you from them. There is no escape because it is inside you. God is not there to hide you from yourself or from your challenges. God is there to help you to deal with them. That is why HE granted you this earth life, because HE knows you will need every second of whatever length of time you earned for yourself in this current incarnation.
So, get to work! Go for it. Set off with the business of living by experiencing. God will help you if you are brave and honest.
Che Chidi Chukwumerije
Undulating Plains
CHANGING CLOTHES
People are like clothes Sometimes we change them Personalities are like clothes Sometimes we change them Consciousnesses are like clothes Sometimes we change them Places are like clothes Sometimes we change them Inwardly and outwardly For similar reasons And in between changing them We are naked. Che Chidi Chukwumerije Poems from the inner river
TYPES
Sometimes you are just not someone’s type. They might be attracted to you for a while, curious about you, interested in you, be entertained by you. But in the end they will betray you or leave you, because deep within their heart you are actually not their type or what they’re looking for.
And there are two types of them. Those that will tell you honestly up front. And those who won’t.
Che Chidi Chukwumerije
Undulating Plains
HOW MANY
How many people are you? I’m two. If you don’t see me through You won’t know who’s talking to you. Some people I see Are three Dealing with them you have to be Relating with all three Simultaneously. Che Chidi Chukwumerije Poems from the inner river
WHEN THE WOUND DOESN’T HEAL
When the wound heals outside Without healing inside Baby you are beautiful inside and outside Your smile is open wide But your heart, the one that cried But your heart, the one that lied But your heart, the one that died Is closed up on the inside And will continue to pretend and to hide… Your laughter is it pain or is it pride? Lonely bride You are a lonely bride. Che Chidi Chukwumerije Poems from the inner river
THERE IS AN ANGER
There is an anger that cannot be stopped Until it has burned its way through the heart And left a trail of cold ash and dropped Off shrivelled and twisted like abstract art On the canvas where memories are developed Negatives left behind for a seeker’s chart. Che Chidi Chukwumerije Poems from the inner river
DIFFERENT STORIES
The story is always told differently From how it really happened Because the story was experienced differently From how it really happened By everyone to whom it really happened Even while it really happened To everyone to whom it really happened Like it never really happened. Che Chidi Chukwumerije Poems from the inner river
YOU KNOW
Go at your own pace Let no one hurry you Your life has deeper value Than just to be in a race. Frame your own narrative Own your own story Share your own memory Everybody’s is selective. Only you know Deep within your soul Your heart’s true goal You alone know. Che Chidi Chukwumerije Poems from the inner river
HEALED BROKEN
It’s not as easy as you think
Some bones heal in their broken position
Yes, they don’t hurt anymore
But they will never again make the same old motion
And you will never again feel the former emotion.
Che Chidi Chukwumerije
Poems from the inner river
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