TYPES

Sometimes you are just not someone’s type. They might be attracted to you for a while, curious about you, interested in you, be entertained by you. But in the end they will betray you or leave you, because deep within their heart you are actually not their type or what they’re looking for.

And there are two types of them. Those that will tell you honestly up front. And those who won’t.

Che Chidi Chukwumerije
Undulating Plains

WHEN THE WOUND DOESN’T HEAL

When the wound heals outside
Without healing inside
Baby you are beautiful inside and outside
Your smile is open wide
But your heart, the one that cried
But your heart, the one that lied
But your heart, the one that died
Is closed up on the inside
And will continue to pretend and to hide…
Your laughter is it pain or is it pride?
Lonely bride
You are a lonely bride.

Che Chidi Chukwumerije
Poems from the inner river

WHEN YOU STOP WANTING

When you stop wanting to know everything,
You start knowing what to really want;
When you start wanting to grow into winning,
You start growing, focused, up and to the front.

Never forget the kind of people and things
That rejected you when you were nobody and nothing,
Your knowledge of them shall be the wings
That shall fly you over obstacles into your blessing.

Absorb the pain and become serious,
Trudge through the terrain no matter how tedious,
Be your true self and you’ll be mysterious,
And never return to all that was injurious.

Che Chidi Chukwumerije
Poems from the inner river

FEEL IT FULLY

Feel it fully
Intensely not dully
Pain beyond measure
Is one of the earth’s treasures
It grows your heart
Makes it strong, soft and alert
All in one. Your true heart
Your spirit, your innermost part
That lives on and on and on
And on and on and on…

Che Chidi Chukwumerije
Poems from the inner river

HEALED BROKEN

It’s not as easy as you think
Some bones heal in their broken position
Yes, they don’t hurt anymore
But they will never again make the same old motion
And you will never again feel the former emotion.

Che Chidi Chukwumerije
Poems from the inner river

GETTING THERE

Have you known pain
More than you ever thought you could bear?
You will recover again -
When death approaches, immortal life is near.

Accepting the inconceivable,
Acknowledging the irretrievable,
Internalising the unchangeable,
Will slowly get you there.

Che Chidi Chukwumerije
Poems from the inner river

BECOMING CIRCUMSPECT

A year passed by so quickly, like a whirlwind. The most important lesson I have learned: Value people who tell you the truth, for they are rare. Be sparing with your trust. And know that, unfortunately or fortunately, there is always something more to every story you hear. The exceptions to this rule are rare. So, become circumspect, even as you love harder. Because the harder you love, the deeper you go into the heart of truth and deception. The human heart is on earth to grow, and it grows only by intense and authentic experiencing of itself and of other hearts. So, open your heart to everything, but know this: “Everything” includes both the light and the dark, both the dependable and the treacherous, coming both from strangers as well as, even more so, from the people you trust.

Che Chidi Chukwumerije
Undulating Plains

QUIETLY

Is there any hope for me?
Good Friday not so good.
A deep slumber of mystery,
A soul troubled to darkly brood,
A distracted mind of matter,
But knock knock, knock on wood,
Who’s there to lovingly shatter
My illusions? For truth is food.
Wake me up before you go -
Resurrection will upon crucifixion intrude:
Resist injustice, rediscover my glow,
Because, inside, I’m in a sunny mood.

Che Chidi Chukwumerije
Poems from the inner river

THE DULL ACHE

It is a healed wound
Or healing
While it yet crooned
I was feeling
You did your worst
To my inner child
Eligwe did burst
Sanctuary defiled.

Che Chidi Chukwumerije
Poems from the inner river

DEFLATION

It‘s a strange feeling when you stop caring;
You look for it inside you, it’s no longer there.
The heart grows cold and stops sharing,
And lies overtake the spirit of truth or dare.
It’s a strange feeling when you stop fearing
To lose what you love the most to have near.

What has freed you leaves you feeling empty;
The answers are few, the questions are plenty;
But the urge to know has suddenly died recently. -

Che Chidi Chukwumerije
Poems from the inner river