Sicher, du bist wirklicher als
Meine Träume dem Wunsche nach dir es
Ein räumten. Dennoch bin ich mir
Ein bisschen unsicher.
Brannte vielleicht nur die Sicherung durch?
Wessen Herz kann wem was versichern?
Wie ein Blinder taste ich nach Spuren
Meiner Sicherheit, voller Angst und Hoffnung.
– Che Chidi Chukwumerije.
Four example
Camel Lion
Your dreamy dark eyes
Bottomless pools of wanting
Crow’s bones
Lord of the thighs
Unhappy keys, open me
A bright queer inner light-flash
Sometimes camel, sometimes lion and me
Waterbottle
Just fooling around
Sex and Sax
Keep it tight, yeah that’s just alright
– Che Chidi Chukwumerije.
Open slowly
Don’t show it all
Too fast –
Pause… a little more… pause… a little more
Draw a little breath
Every change is death
And rebirth –
– CHE CHIDI CHUKWUMERIJE.
Kurz
Hinter der Tür
Verschwand die Wand – plötzlich, ohne Warnung –
Ich war frei, du auch
Ohne Gespür für Schuld und Moral
… dann rollten die Tore der Vergesslichkeit zurück.
Und ich war wieder
Der Mann deiner besten Freundin
Und du die Frau
Meines Kumpels.
– CHE CHIDI CHUKWUMERIJE.
Distance
Brought me closer to you than
Romance
Ever did or ever could
Distance
Is more intimate than nearness
Substance
Needs space to come together
Distance
Is at the heart of our closeness
Long live the resistance
That makes the current of love flow.
– CHE CHIDI CHUKWUMERIJE.
I did not want to talk to her.
It was enough, this distance
Was a canvas on which I could
Her Beauty admire, enjoy my desire
In its state of perfection
But, oh!, I spoke to her. She broke
The mirror in which I admired the reflection
Of my perfect her.
Who is this shell
Talking to, touching, lying beside me?
Falling fast like a rock that
Was lifted too high for its own good.
The moon is beautiful
Only from afar.
Before you demystify her, stop
And take one last look at what you’re about to lose.
– CHE CHIDI CHUKWUMERIJE.
My whole life has been a long series of attempts to destroy my unworthy self. Only after I succeeded, did I realise what I had lost.
Love yourself. Yourself is not just ALL you have, it is WHAT you are. There is nothing else you can ever be. Don’t waste your life. You become better by growth, not by psychological self-mutilation.
– Che Chidi Chukwumerije.
Ihr wurde gewiss
Ich würde sie irgendwann verlassen
Deshalb hielt sie bereits
Den Ersatz bereit, für den Fall
Denn alleine kann sie nicht sein –
Das ist ihre tiefste Wunde.
Daß ich sie für nur eine kurze Weile verlassen würde
Um mich und sie wieder zu finden
Wussten wir beide nicht
Aber als ich zurück kehrte, befreit und bereit
War sie bereits weg –
Denn sie kann nicht alleine sein.
Rückblicke besiegeln die Flucht
Die plötzliche Abreise war längst gebucht
Die Ängste der Sehnsucht.
– Che Chidi Chukwumerije.
I saw loneliness tonight – she
Was sitting in the corner, in her fifties
Smoking a cigarette and watching
Laughter dancing on the young dancefloor.
For a while, her husband sat next to her
And she smiled and joked with him and
His friends. When they left to get a drink
She sat quietly in her thoughts and
As her eyes roved quietly over the
Dancefloor, our eyes met. And then I saw
Loneliness.
– CHE CHIDI CHUKWUMERIJE.
What’s behind the veil?
Nothing. The veil is your face
I don’t need a mask
My face masks my thoughts
The reason why I don’t hide things
Is because the best hiding places
Are out there in the open
That’s why you don’t see it
You don’t believe the things I tell you
Because I tell them to you
But if I were to hold them back
You would start to look for them in my Silence
And you would look and look
Until you became a prisoner of my Silence
So why don’t you appreciate it
When I just tell you in plain simple words
That I love you?
I killed you when I took off your mask
Now you want to kill me, by putting
A new different one back on.
But I already saw the girl within
Hidden deeper than shame and sin
Struggling with the pain within
And Pride is her middle name.
– Che Chidi Chukwumerije.
